30th June 2008

Never went to school today.. Just kinda tired and didn't feel like qoinq, so just ponten bahhs. Lol actually I stay at home to study (l0l quai mehs?? ;P). School is just borinq and the SDSP programme has just begun today. But OMG tomorrow when i'm back in school all the way until 7pm for the next 3 months!! ><"" No choice worr.. not that I wanted too.. Going shoppinq later at northpoint. LOL think all my friends are at the SDSP programme. Probably won't be seeing them there.. L0l it just feels good to ponten to slack sometimes right? Well yesterday that audi mei of mine told her kor everything and what happen? >> They both attacked me with words.. LOLS DAMN Them.. But never mind i also don't care anyway, Friday comes and I wonder.. LOL can predict something gonna happen at Audi, we'll just sit back and find out then. Now current;y studying, but sneaking to blog, i zao first bahhs, will be back to blog later :D

28th June 2008

back ;DD . Maybe I hv been a little bit oversensitive about friends this and that. After all no point qettinq all vexed about this type of thinq anyway. 2 more days and its bye bye audi for 3 months. I havent been really bloqqinq for quite awhile, so many thinqs have kept me preoccupied like school work, annoyinq friends in audi and alot of thinqs. Well i was suppose to be at er.. this weddinq, ya weddinq. I cant talk much now so i'll siqn off now.. to be continued tomorrow . :D

24th June 2008

Nothinq qets better!! Guess what? Tuesday morninq I was hopinq NOTHING would qo wronq but in the end.. IT DID! I admit I did forqet to do my homework and the price? Wearinq slippers on my riqht foot! It's so f***inq humiliatinq especially if you don't have friends LIKE ME! I had to bear it LOL like i don't even had a choice.. 3 periods of accountinq lessons in a AIR CON room! (Great they on the air con for us) To tell you, walkinq around with 1 slipper on your foot is so humiliatinq.. Even my friends made fun of me at mother tonque lessons later on..

FINE I was tired and wantinq to sleep since I didn't have a qood sleep last niqht and then.. Made fun of me this and that..DO THEY HAVE TO DO THAT?! Man what a bad day today man!! Firstly beinq made fun of by my "friends" and wearinq a slipper all day until 3pm with much humiliation.. Now why can't I have at least 1 GOOD FRIEND? I don't have any friends at all!! I don't know its that now i'm alone now and no one seems to qive fuck shit about me anymore >:O ..

Fine i'm much more stupid than my friends.. I let them kick me around, insultinq me this and that oh and makinq fun of me!! *Why I don't have any friends?! Is it my fault that i'm stupid and a idiot mentally if I know nuts about friendship?! Even my audi friends also don't like me..

I quess my teachers don't like me as well.. They had no choice but to mark all my work but if they had a choice, they would mark the rest and put my work in the paper shredder. It seems my life now is qoinq downhill, NO friends by my side.. Havinq to be there for my own. The worst is i'm alone! *I wish I was normal, that way people don't have to call me stupid or an idiot like i'm beinq used to.. Lessons to learn:

1.Don't critize anyone who is much more stupid than you or mock at like me for instance.

2. Be qood to your friends and maintain a qood friendship by beinq there for each other like best buds!

*Ex-friends and others: CAREFUL IN MAINTAINING A FRIENDSHIP AND DON'T END UP LIKE ME WITH NO FRIENDS TO HOLD ON TO.

Guess I have to hold on to myself, I hope there is somethinq to keep my face hiqh up.. I really don't have true friends anymore just because i'm stupid freak.
It's my 'O' Levels now that I have to save myself. Hopefully I will have better friends when i qo to poly hopefully next year.. :')

--SIGNED OFF AT 9:02PM 24th JUNE 2008--

23rd June 2008

"It just qets stupider and more stupid".. I really don't know, first day of a new school term and thinqs didn't exactly qo well for me in the end. Firstly, arrived at school at 7.25 and assembled at my respective position at the school carpark. Afterwards I was waitinq for the flaq raisinq ceremony as usual (To tell you the truth, I hate that procedure!) and then, I GOT CAUGHT (Not red-handed)!! For an apparent reason, my hairstyle wasn't to the school's likinq and pulled me out to the back.. GRRR!! At least i'm not the only one. Well I was send back with the others to class .

Had 1st period, our teacher explaininq to us what we will be doinq for the next 4 m0nths. Oh we had a new timetable as well. Went to Lit. class followed by enqlish for the next 2 periods. Conversation practice this and that.. Come 10.10 when back at class from the music room, I was sent with my other friends to the concourse to qet our hairs trimmed! Damn.. had my back only trimmed which was wasn't so bad as I would think it would turn out to be.. Slacked in the toilet for 30mins with the others and went to the concourse and that was it!

For the rest of the day in school wasn't so bad, no SSS for this week. And after school my teacher talked to me personally as usual. It's only for the half of today and I don't know if anythinq else would qo wronq. To be continued..

22nd June 2008

I haven't bloq for aqes -.-! yupp ever since what has happened i just don't feel like bloqqinq or sayinq anythinq. After all, everythinq's just stupid maybe? Damn my birthday's qone and so are the holidays! For now I really don't know what to do with this stupid life of mine. It doesn't qet any better does it huh?

First thinqs first, I didn't do really much for the 17th to the 18th, nothinq much for sure. Only on my birthday where at least I went out to celebrate thouqh.. Ok.. only some of my friends remembered my birthday and sadly, most of my friends forqot my birthday! (If they forqet even your birthday; don't call them friends!) It's stupid to sum up thinqs.

20th June which was yesterday. Well lets see I woke up in the morninq and didn't find out much stuff to do, helped to wash my mum's car (Btw I q0rt $50 from all the adruous task!) had a lunch at home where for the rest of the day I hanqed out at audi.. Then I went to northpoint, for a few thinqs.. Followed by oh well, had dinner at chinatown (HOW BORING!) That's where my day ends here and oh well.. Don't know how am I qoinq to hold my face in school on monday.. SIGHS! NOTHING qets better!

16th June 2008

3 Days More :D! I haven't bloqqed over the weekend due to family problems. Firstly me like just to share with you what happened. Saturday, I took my parents out to lunch and eventually paid for everythinq and quess what? They started to quarrel in the car, to the lunch and on the way back. Unfortunately, my mum had left the house when we came back and now my mum hasn't returned home yet.(*Still waitinq !) My dad well have been askinq and interroqatinq me about my mum's whereabouts, and I totally don't even have a clue where she is.. Well I had to Audi-inq to just forqet everythinq what was qoinq on. It just went by in a flash ..

Sunday comes and of course to make thinqs worst, MY PET DIED!! I didn't had a chance to bury my dead turtle thouqh, i had to dispose him..(So hard to part from the departed.) Well I don't know if this is my retribution or qod punishinq me.. Fine I may have committed alot of mistakes for the past 6 months, BUT I DON'T NEED TO BE PUNISHED AND SUFFER RIGHT?!. I really have no clue, my birthday is just 3 days away and I can't imaqine what is qoinq to happen on my birthday... So to sum it all up, I didn't have a qood weekend, it was miserable and depressinq. 1st my mum and dad quarreled and my mum left, 2nd my pet died and 3rd? Fail 'O' levels? OH GOD I HOPE NOT! I need a helpinq hand now.. *Mum COME HOME OKAYY? T.T

I Had to postpone my opinions. I don't have the mood to talk about anythinq. My scars on my hands, will be with me for the rest of my life. To remind me how much pain I have went and lived throuqh the darkest days.* I just need someone to be there to help me up when im'm already down.. Just no mood to do my homework assiqnment! I'll siqn off now, be riqht back.. Haiish!!

13th June 2008

Hahas 6 More days to qo! Well abit anqry and pek cek that my mp3 player spoil. (Now that I have to use my other spare mp3 player. Awww) Today Audi around quite abit, was busy chionqinq to level which I then eventually did. At least i passed license after tryinq a few times when i finally qot it. (OMG, Lvl.28 sure kena tio kick!)Well the couple level upqraded (Finally!) but can't love party yet.. 300pt!! nid 100 more sia. okayys other then that I just club around here and there. Kinda tirinq.. Another Voicinq:Thouqhts have surfaced with the question remains, :Do You Think That Life Is Unfair? Tomorrow are my views (Need to sleep!) cya tomorrow, byeee! ;D


okayys Canon Groove this 1 I qt 1st place.. Chain here and dere until everyone pek cek =P


Clubbinq as well! wif my laopo ;D think i didn't qet 1st place bt nvm bahhs. (Fun clubbinq around when its so borinq ;D)


hahas playinq beat up.. even the kinqy can't win. pro as usual =x! Audition: Like It(Jowa!) 145bpm


Christmas Curry (Party!) Did CFM @_@ holy cow! playinq wif xiiaocutiepie ;D

11th June 2008

COUNTDOWN! 8days more and im already 17, does time fly really that fast? Don't think so? Lets see i didn't really do much today; except that I stayed at home with my terrapins and audiinq around for the fun of it. I haven't even start on my assiqnment yet OMFG! Tomorrow i'm qoinq out anyway so i probably don't have the time to do the assiqnment but i will do it on friday bahhs;X. To be continued later: qot another voicinq cominq up!


8k Canon Groove CFM @_@ l0l wif -x3FANTASAY~ Actually dats my mei usinq his Acc.


LOL I did the 135 CFM as well either =P. Dancinq 1,2,3!-- wif -LOVE-xDEVIL


That's Me Spinninq @_@! Did the FM fur 135 Queen Of Dancinq.

10th June 2008

I have found back my feet finally ;D. Everythinq seems to start to qet better (Great isn't it?) Well i quess my happier days have just arrived. Of course we shouldn't hold on to qrudqes riqht? Well today i'm off to buqis at about 11am.. Wells I qort alot of shoppinq to do, to be continued with more pics on buqis tomorrow! ;DD

8th June 2008

I don't know if this is crazy or just a total niqhtmare! Firstly after my family outinq back fr0m thompson plaza.. at the elevator my mum saw my hands been badly so called scarred or somethinq like that. From there she lectured and scolded me on the way until I apoloqised and said ............... .

But of course i thouqht everythinq would qo rather smoothly from there, (How wronq I was) and then after awhile later my mum came into my room and then yelled super loud at me.

Yes I admit I was abit unreasonable and yelled back and quess what. I ended up with a lump on my head after my mum threw the photo album and a box of papers at my head (qot to admit, that hurt D;) I didn't know what to do from there. So my mother tried to slap me and i quickly ran for cover. That's when everybody else intervened the scene and I was left there, stranded with nothinq to do. Maybe I'm stupid like what my mother called me or an idiot..

I don't know but it does speak of my character some sort of the way or the other. So my life has turned around for the worst, perhaps thinqs just won't qet better. I wish my mum moves out, since she said she wanted to qet rid of me (okay so she did mentioned her burdens will be much easier and lesser without me.)

Fine well pray hope my mum moves out, it would do much qood for her and where do I qo from here on? Only time would be my answer.. (Haiish.. Nothinq.. NOTHING!! Gets better =( )I asked myself: Maybe I'm the worst human beinq ever on this planet. Maybe I'm some sort of devil or just a plain abnormal stupid dumbass. I really don't know for now.. I'm so lost..

8th June 2008

Back to bloqqinq after 2 days or so, well thinqs aren't vivid now in auditionSEA, i just lost my Audi mei yesterday (Don't wish to see her anymore I quess.) I mean, it's just really stupid. (I would rather not say it =x). Never mind about that, it's the least of my worries for the moment.

So.. Oh yes! I went to the "Qian Hu Fish Farm" at Choa Chu Kanq yesterday, not to mention that it was raininq cats and doqs there i supppose.. So I went there because of this "Spa Fish" treatment, supposinqly to be qood but don't see any effects yet.. So here are the pics of the fishes nibblinq on my feet for the dead skin they craved for.

Went to Orchard Takashimaya after that, really didn't do anythinq much but just walk around (To say, I did bouqht some stationary =x). Super crowded because of a sale qoinq on ermm.. i quess i did feel quilty after when i let my mum the wronq way home and ended up in Choa Chu Kanq from Orchard to Clementi and to there like that (Close to Johor!) But at least we found the way back thouqh.. To be continued.


It was ticklish at first, but after awhile well, not so ticklish.


What if it was pirahnas (Don noe hw 2 spell) instead of the spa fish? Ohh I can't imaqine that!

The Opinions, "School, a waste of time qoinq back durinq the holidays?'

Back with the answer to that thouqht; Answer is.. : "Its Sure A Waste Of Precious Time!"
Why? For sure I really don't see a reason to qo back to school durinq the holidays. But what does holiday mean? Holidays means a time for enjoyment, fun, qet-toqetherness (Friends and Family), a time for relaxtion and a peace of mind.

For sure this June Holiday Proqramme has certainly destroyed the meaninq of "Holidays", I would really think qoinq back to school is just a waste of precious and free time for 9 days, so what if the teachers are sacrificinq their holidays for us? (Not as thouqh they CARED!) They reall aren't obliqed to come back wad.(Not as thouqh we beqqed or pleaded them to come back or whatsoever.) Of course, it's NOT our fault that they have to come back.

After all, 2 weeks of holidays have flew by in a flash where WE, teenaqers could have used the time instead of qoinq back to school but into doinq other more pleasant and pleasure thinqs like, qoinq on outinqs, qet-toqetherness, catchinq a movie, sleepinq, computer and doinq our own favourable thinqs etc.

BUT where did our time for the first two weeks of the holidays went to? SCHOOL! Oh yes for sure its as thouqh they still aren't satisfied in torturinq our tired brains from the chinese 'O' lvl and the intensive lessons RIGHT after the mid-year! Haven't they "killed" us enouqh yet?

I really don't see any usefulness and practicality in cominq back for the June Holiday Proqramme. After all, we could sit at home and doinq self-study in a air-conditioned, quiet environment unlike a classroom. For me, it's just 9 days of BORING revision and the rest are still catchinq up with the syllabus.

It's simply just unreasonable for the school to even bother my parents for callinq them up when they are sweatinq bullets in the office, just to tell them I was late, 1 TIME and they just made Mount Everest out of a crab Hole! (Just to let you know how this school sucks REAL time.)

And if you look it from another perspective, the "pros" may find cominq back to school more "Enrichinq", "meaninqful", "a qood sense of learninq", "Practical", "Useful".
Of course for the "Noobs", may find this "Useless", "Waste of Free time", "Impratical", "No sense of purpose", "Meaninqless", "What for qo back?", "Draininq", and I see myself to be honest, in that cateqory. :P

6th June 2008

Chem test was.. oh well.. not bad at least i still manaqed to pass it thouqh. Can't believe this, the crazy STU (Singapore Teacher's Union) or bla bla bla have been torturinq me and my friends with all this stupid seminars man.. quess what? To make thinqs worst, we have to travel to marina boulevard ON OUR OWN!

Today's last (Good qrief!) seminar was at the qrassroots' Club (Think they should call it qrasshopper's Club =x) at yio chu kanq, didn't have to travel really much, only before that i had to take a bus from my school bus stop to derhh mrt like that. And i had to take the damn train home back aqain how i came.

Well finally today was the last day I need to be in my uniform, went to the chem lab today, did some experiment on ferman..fermentatinq or don't know la somethinq like that (It's some sort of turninq glucose to ethanol by some sort of distillation maybe?). Didn't really do much in school, qot 6/12 for my chem test.. And another BIG one next month, the mock II exam.. (Great my pile of holiday assiqnments and tasks have just rose to the summit of mount everest ==)

It's only 2 damn weeks i had to qo back to school and they shove a LOAD of papers and homework as thouqh it's like 5 months work altoqether jumbled up!

Maybe parents do have a point in voicinq out their thouqhts on "Why must my child (Pro or Noob) need to qo back to school for?" Answer: It's simply a waste of time. You know la, I have thouqht, IS IT WORTH IT TO GO BACK TO SCHOOL FOR 2 WEEKS? ANY USEFULNESS GAINED FROM SACRIFICING MY PLAY AND FREE TIME?" To be continued with my answer to that thouqht =x

4th June 2008

okayys i'm back aqain, :D well audi was kinda fun i quess, not to mentioned that a fucker asked me to qo and fuck my own basket. (Sure he has his own basket!) anywaees never mind ab0ut that baka (japanese for idiot). Other than that everythinq in audi was kinda okayys bahhs. Sad my fren quitted audi today for some reason.. but hey, i should be quittinq soon should I? Mayybe humms.. kind of tired now, will continue to talk more ab0ut audi tomorrow after school bahhs. Not to mention that I have to qo back to school tomorrow aqain, siqhs.. Chemistry for 1st lesson (Oh wells! :DD)

Siqninq off at 12.00am, 5th June.

4th June 2008

*Stressed! Finally 2 more days to qo before i can really relaxed for my last 2 weeks of the holidays. Well the holiday proqramme left us with more and more assiqnments to do. Especially literature.. read and understand 4 stories. qreat and those stories are what i hate the most LOR! Today was kinda okayy just that i reached school about 8.24am. First we had enqlish at the AVA room.. practicinq on oral and all that kind of stuff (Borinq!!*). Afterwards we had POA.. And quess what our Workload wasn't made any better for us. 8 questions to do for the 2 weeks of our holiday.. Guess more and more work is qonna come crawlinq to us tomorrow and friday.. Really can't wait for saturday to come (THE DAY HAS CAME!!*) Well after my last lesson i stayed for about 25 minutes in school for counsellinq by my teacher (Seems that she is kinda concerned?*), after that i felt very melancholic and sorrowful as thouqh my heart was liftinq a pile of concrete bricks.. Kinda depressinq after what has happened, just wish i could forqet about it thouqh. (*I don't have much time left.. Better act quick!). I'll pause here, will continue more later onwards.

1st June 2008

well i did say i will be back :D. ya noe, i cant believe i got to go to school tomorrow -.- looks like i don't have any other choice thouqh... haiish.. todae didnt do really much, except that i just went to orchard to do some so-called shoppinq thouqhs. ok im bored now.. guess i will be qoinq to sleep now. tomorrow.. haiish sch sch sch all morninq -.-||

1st June 2008

The new month has arrived FINALLY! May was qettinq abit borinq. Well lookinq forward to my birthday on the 19th :D, who's qonna celebrate with me i don't really know thouqh. Oh well, 22 days left on my holiday calendar. With 5 days needinq to qo back to school (Arqqq!!). It's the same old borinq old routine everyday, quess I have to live with it thouqh :P. LOL i just woke up >< feelinq abit sleepy.. I really don't wish to qo tomorrow for the remedial (I just wish..) okays i don't really have much to say now. Siqninq off now, will be back to bloqqinq later :D